Anywhere but here

I need to go somewhere. Travel. See a show. I've been stuck in Normal too damn long, and I purposefully passed up my chance to get out of here. I have no reason to be attached to this town. Maybe one day everything I love here will leave and I'll finally be able to get out. I want to move to Madison. I want to move somewhere warm. I want to find lost friends. I want to find lost enemies and see if they might become friends even though I'll surely secretly hope they won't. It's hard to deal with such durastic change, even if it's been years since any of these people mattered. I want to go back to Hawaii. I want to lie on the fucking beach until I get something that might, possibly, be considered a tan. I want to go shopping and completely redo my wardrobe so that it seems like I'm another person even though I'm certainly not.

I need a fucking haircut.

I was talking to my friend Sara last night about how you're only satisfied with your shit job for so long. When you get sick of it is when you finally grow up. It seems everyone is growing up fast except for me. They're leaving their hometowns, they're going to school ... they're preparing to move on. I'm still here. I'm going to Illinois fucking State. How can this possibly get me closer to anything? I need to go back to Beloit. I need to visit people in other states when I'm on break. I need to NOT work at Steak N Shake. I could make more stripping, and it would take less effort. I really want to wonder what it would be like to go back home again, but I don't want to have to leave home to do it.

Can someone just come down here and take me away?

"Sometimes I wonder if I should just keep driving."